i'm floating.

I was shocked and surpirsed when i received his call at 12.33am. I thought he was already asleep since he kept telling me that his fever is rising. I let him sleep early today. We ended the talk at 12am just now. He called again at 12.33am. What a surprise!!! He called just to say I LOVE YOU!!! Hahaa!!! I'm smilling all alone and adek was just pissed because he just broke up with his gf. Adik jgn jealous ehk. :) That is so random of you kay darling but I LOVE YOU TOO!!! Get well soon hunnie. Do you know that everynight without fail,i will sleep with your busuk t-shirt right by my side. The smell of your t-shirt reminds me of you. I'm in cloud N-I-N-E!!! Darling that was the best surprise that you gave me for this week! :) MUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHSSS!!!! I'm missing you. P.S: Mama promised to cook your favourite dish once you get home baby!!! :)

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Since darling is going for his stand by duty on this Tuesday,i spent my time with him. He couldn't book out on friday because of something and so he booked out on Saturday. After work Iffah came over to my place. Chill around first and have some fun time. HEHE! Adek and Ino (my adek angkat) was at home. They just can't stop playing online games. URGH! At 8pm darling arrived at my place. I was shocked because he didn't tell me that he was coming. I rushed to get ready and went out with him. A new member to the group.His name is Raimi. We took the cab to Kampung Melayu as Ciner and Wan Jepun was already waiting for us there.


I'm afraid of KUDA KEPANG la!!! Since Ciner wants to watch,we waited and watch.Only Raimi and darling knows how scared i was! HEEHEE! I rather watch Dikir Barat than Kuda Kepang. :) After the performance was over we waited for the rest at the entrance. Luckily there wasn't any fight that night because they nearly bumped into one. We head off to Changi for chalet. It was at the SAF Holiday Chalet. Gosh! Mendak per!! The chalet was Boyan Tear's adek's gf chalet. It was freaking boring with all those minahs. Since Kimee was out with her family i'm alone this time. Since Raimi was a newbie,i talked to him so that he won't feel left out. We thon the whole night. Raimi slept first after 4 cups of drinks. HAHA! Kental la lu! He was awake after some time. Baby you look so cute when you're high!! With that red nose! HEHE!!! Around 3am,Olie arrived. He's cute. HEHE! I like his voice. :) Jahat sak lizz. He really got lots of story. We found another Chipmunk! Its Olie's gf. HEHE! The girls in the calet are useless. I cooked some food for the guys and we ate together. Sedap kan bie!? HEEH! At the couch,Boyan Tears fell asleep after a few minutes of sitting on that fluffy coushion. While we enjoyed the night watching SAW3!!! Baby fell asleep first. Everytime we thon baby will fell asleep first followed by me and Ciner. Bie kental ar! At 7am,bie woke up and realised that i was sleeping on his lap. He woke me up and we watched Step Up for a while and went back home. Boyan Tears kelakar la. Bangun pagi muker basi and he fell off the couch! Lost balance! LOL! Took 59 home.I went to the market bought some chicken wings. Thought of cooking black pepper chicken but ended up in bed.HAHA! Mum cooked the chicken while i was sleeping. I slept till boyfie arrived and woke me up.Paisey!!!

On Sunday,we waited for Kimee's call before going out. Boyie fell asleep right after he ate his lunch. I fell asleep too. Mum was laughing at the both of us.Its is so difficult to wake my boyfie up!! GOSH!! In the end Kimee called and she was with Yazid. Meet them up at Pasir Ris intechange. Before meeting,i checked boyfie's hp.I came across some girls names. I asked him who they were. He told me. At first i don't believe him. I don't know why. After that i ignored him and kept quiet. I was hurt. One of the girls' name was his ex. In the bus i kept quiet and he realised it and started to console me. He hugged me and that is when tears started to shed. He hugged me tighter. I love you so much and i'm just too scared to lose you. I sat there and Kimee asked why on earth am i so quiet. I tried not to show them that we're having some problems but still Kimee knows it. Yazid brings darling away from me. We had girls talk. I told everything to her. She told me everything about bie.

Lizz: Ni bukan kali pertama i heard that girl Sha-sha nyer namer. Dah dua kali la kimee.
Kimee: Tu pompuan dier pernah bilang aku and we saw her before and we don't like her. By the way the other day kiter gi shopping then ciner nak beli baju and budak tu keje saner. Cak (Boyfie's nick name.) tak masok pon tu kedai tapi jalan and tunggu kiter kat tempat lain. Aku ader kat saner aku yang teman dier biler dier gah bebual ngn kau. Lek ar girl. Aku tau its difficult to accept. Lagi-lagi dier budak ni kan. But still trust him kay. Dier setia la. Don't worry aku akan jaga kan dier untok kau kalau kiter keluar kau tkda,aku jaga dier. Aku tau Cak nyer orang. Dier kalau dah sayang satu orang tu dier sayang through out tapi satu hal dier suker test orang yang dier sayang tu punyer kesabaran. Kau sabar jer ehk. Ader aper-aper hal bukak jer ngn kiter.We're family now,TGL!!!
Lizz: Yerla,tapi aku tak tau la nie. Tapi aku still nak dier explain.
Kimee: Sekarang up to you nak uat per.Dier dah dtg tu.

Thanks to Kimee and Yazid for everything! My doubts are cleared now! I need to trust him. Trust is everything that we need darling.

Once ciner arrived we went to Al-Fresco for dinner. Boyan Tears called and said the chalet was cancel. No Moscow chalet. :) So we head to Pasir Ris park with Ice cream and chill there instead. Its a great night. Thanks darling for everything.

On Monday,i spent 1/3 of the day with darling iffah at bugis. Searching for her pumps. After all those haunting,we went off straight to my place. She bought everything that she need and we're back to my house. Bumped into darling at the lift and so we went up together. Darling updated his mp3 and all.We had dinner together. Gosh!!! He loves chicken so much till he ate like 8 pieces of it. Ishk Ishk Ishk!!! On that day the dish was Kangkong masak lemak.Its his favourite! Mak oit!! Makan tak ingat orang!Iffa just can't stop calling my boyfie "BOI BOI!!!" After dinner,we went off to his camp.We took cab. I know that night will be the last night that i'll be seeing him. He gave me his worn shirt. Thanks!
Throughout the whole journey,the only thing that i could do was to hug him. We didn't talk. Till tears started to roll down from my cheeks and it wets his shirt. He was shocked and tried to stop me from crying. A week without you is so difficult for me. Reached Yishun.I've stop crying. We waited for the bus. && again tears showed up out of the blue. Till i saw the bus 169 approaching the bus stop. That was the last hug and kiss i received from him. As the bus left with him,i walked off,wishing that the day could be rewind.

We made promises to each other;

• I should be home by 11pm,if i'm going out with friends.
• No outing with Ciner and the members of TGL,since he's not around. Not even Kimee.
• Behave myself.
• Sleep early.
• Remember to eat,Don't skip meals. ( i love doing this while he's around!)
• He needs to take his medications.
• Both of us shouldn't be thinking about each other.

So this morning he called for the last time. I LOVE YOU DARLING! Return back home as soon as possible syg!! I'm missing you badly. That was last time i heard him crying on the phone & i tried not to cry again but i just can't. You're so cute darling. Take Care! && I love you like the way i used to Love You syg! I'll wait for your return on 4 March Hunnie!!

On the last thursday,Wani and i was busy doing some shopping for the BBQ on the next day. We marinated the Fish and Chickens. She left me with the messy kitchen. HAH!
Morning of Friday,i cooked Fried Rice and get myself ready for the event. Packed all the stuff. Thanks to Fana,she helped me out to carry the foods.We took a cab and fetched Wani. There goes Izzul being the hero for the day. He carries the charcoal and starts the fire for us. We waited for the guys. Once they arrived we had our BBQ started. YUM YUM!!!
Christina and Wei Jun arrived. I was damn happy that they showed up. 1/2 of the class really showed up and for those who are like the "yayapapaya" ones like what fana mentioned,you guys sux! As the sun sets down the crowd is getting bigger and the BBQ i getting HOTTER! HAHA!!! The food finished at ard 6++ and the three of us was panicking!!! We bought another packet of chickens!! HEHE!!!
To conclude,THANKS FOR COMING!!! WE HAD SO MUCH FUN TOGETHER!!! :)
Boyfie wanted to come over for the BBQ when its all over. Sorry ehk fana for the shouting in the cab! HAHA!!! Gah marah tu!! So i waited for him at my void deck.It was already 11+!!! He arrived and so we thon. To be by his side throughout the night was just so superb!

On Saturday,the Chingay party.
I went home at 10am.I took some rest. I woke up at 4pm. Boyfie came over to my place. He surfed the net and talked to adek and all.Again i thon with him but this time was with Ciner and friends. It was great. I got to know 3 other friends of his; Murai,Kimee and Wan Jepun. I wasn't that close with Wan Jepun but i can get along with Kimee very well. First i felt awkward but after sometimes when Ciner kept talking to me and make me feel welcome to the group. I start talking and all my crazy stuff is out. I was damn jealous with boyfie and Kimee because they're too close. The first one was when Kimee starts touching his chin then he puts his arms around her neck and she hugs him. Saper tak jealous!!! I let them be and walked with Ciner.

After dinner we setteld down at Esplanade. There Ciner asked boyfie to sit opposite us because he wants to sit beside me. I'm okay with it as long as he doesn't touch me. So he didn't. Murai,Yazzid and Murai's gf arrived. Kimee was jealous about it. AAW! Murai is handsome. Seriously!!! None of us talked to Murai's gf. I don't know why. As for me and Kimee our reason is because she's a minah. The whole night was spent with non-stop jokes and jokes and more jokes!!!

We thought of taking the first bus but we didn't. Early in the morning Yazzid said this;
Yazzid: "Ehk! Old Chang Kee bukak kul raper?!"
All of us burst into laughter! HAHAHA!!!
Murai: "Old Chang Kee bukak kul 10 ke 11 pagi la! NI baru 5 pagi! HHAHA!"
Yazzid: (with his blur-ism face) "Pagi-pagi makan karipap sedap la sey!!! Perot aku gah main gendang nie..."
Ciner: "Gi Lau Pa Sat arr! Kedai makan ader per.."
Thanks to Ciner,all of us proceed there and had breakfast. After that all of us went to our seperate ways. Yazzid and Murai stays at Pasir Ris. Such a small world. Boyfie sent me back home.I took my uniform and off to work.

At work,i was damn tired till i keyed in the wrong item. I get pissed off with this aunty.
Aunty: " Excuse me!!!Excuse me!!!Excuse me!!!"
Me: "YES!!!"
Imagine... When you're damn tired and was folding some clothing and a customer said that to you in an irritating voice and she said it like a million times!!! I turned around and shouted!! HAHA! Padan muker. Irritate aku lagi. URGH! I can't stand some people at my work place. Who really backstabs you like crazy!!! I feel like quiting but thinking back, there is no point for me to quit because of this some people. FCUKERS!

Back at home i was too tired till i didn't eat my dinner and just went to bed without talking to boyfie.

On Monday,Boyfie and i went to market and shop. We cooked Ayam Masak Asam Pedas. YUMMY!!! That was random!!! HHAAH!! After eating we search for themes and played games. Childish la kiter ni bie. HAHA! At 4pm i met Madir and Azri. Chill around with the clans a while. I went off at 7pm and met boyfie. He ate first and i sent him to camp. His friend Wan was there at the bus stop. Sibok jer dier ni. I told darling that i was freaking jealous about him and Kimee. He was shocked. Then he said he was even jealous when Ciner kept wanting to sit beside me and always being close with me. I didn't know that!!! I thought he's okay with it but its a NO!! At least we cleared our doubts right darling?! :)

This Saturday going to be the last time that i meet darling. He's going for 1 week stand by. I'm going to miss you like crazy!!! ILY!!

Its been long that i've updated my blog. Last saturday was a lovely night out with darling and his friends. He fetched me from work. Amanda was damn satisfied that he saw boyfie. Sha Ciner was interested in Nasyita. HAHA! We went to Mc Cafe and i bought Double Chocs and Ciner bought Caramel Frappe.Since boyfie was having his asthma i refused to let him have a sipped of our drinks. After looking at his sad face i gave him some. So iffah,my bestie got to see my boyfie finally. Happy girl?! HAHA! The three of us proceed home. Boyfie came over to my place and took his shower. Mum just can't stop teasing him and he wouldn't stop playing "peek-a-boo!" with mum. HAHA! Childish la you! After that we met Ciner again at my void deck and we're off to Haigh Rd to have our super late dinner. Ciner told me lots about iffa and he told me stuff on what she should do.I let her do on her own way.After all those chattings and eatings we head down to Changi to meet up with Yanto. Slacked around there till 1am and off to Yanto's works place. We played pool and watched some movies and all went flat. HAHA! Baby sent me back home at around 9++am and i went to work after sometime. Lots of stuff happened on that day. On sunday i fell sick. High fever!!! Vaavoom! Hanafi called me and asking me out. NO NO! is the simplest answer. On Monday he asked me out again but too bad i was damn sick. Boyfie kept reminding me to take my meds on time. Its like every 6hrs he will call and remind and every break he had he will msg me. Thanks baby!!! ILY!!! I think im taking some rest now. I want to be really really healthy by tomorrow!!! :)

ily!!!

Basically today the family is well prepared for the bbq at Changi Beach. Its a bbq for my dad's side. Did i ever tell you people that i'm not that close with them.Easy said i don't clique with them that well. I fell like a stranger!!! Seriously! I took my own time to dressed up and helped mum prepare all the food and items. After that dad,mum and bro went off first. Left with Adek and me.

I didn't fetched boyfie today. He booked out and went straight to my place. He was complaining to adek that he was hungry.I pity him and cooked for him maggie. Boyfie just can't stop disturbing me. He plays with the spoon,forks and anything arounds him. Adek was all jealous. Looking at how he treated me and how i treated boyfie back. After a while adek's gf arrived.

Boyfie was eating his maggie and adek was talking to his gf. Boyfie heard her voice and he goes; "CHIPMUNKS!!!!" and i was like "CHIPMUNK?! WHO?! WHERE!!!" HAHAH!!! Then he kept laughing his ass out. I was damn blurr. He pointed to Adek's gf and laughed. He told me that adek's gf sounds like a chipmunk. You're so bad la darling.

Adek: "Per klakar sangat?!"
Boyfie:"Tkder.. Tadi aku dngr ader org mcm CHIPMUNK!!! Tak cayer tanyer kakak kau.."
Adek:"Ehk kakak?!"
Me:"Tak nak masok campur!!"
Then his gf called him.
Adek's Gf: "You!!!"
Boyfie:"HAHAHHAHA!" (LAUGHING LIKE MAD!!!)
Adek:"Fcuk! Aper la zul!!!"
Boyfie:"Kau dngr matair kau tadi ckp per... Mcm chipmunk nyer Crank that version!!! You..."
All of us laughed like crazy in the kitchen!!!

After that adek and her went off. Leaving me and bf. Watched AVP and he fell asleep! Haiiyo!!! I asked him to sleep in my room so he shifted. He saw the bear! I understood why he threw that bear. Every guy will never be happy if his gf were to keep her ex's gift and especiall y when its a bear! He slept and i surfed the net. Around 5pm adek came back home and disturbed boyfie.

I dressed up and off to BBQ pitt. Boyfie didn't follow us.He's tired. Reached there all of my uncles/aunties and grandma asked about him! Oh no!!! Ate and ate and ate.Nobody talked to us. Fcuk!!! We're strangers!!! Luckily there was Abg Is. The only cousin who talked and entertains us. Thanks Abg! Since we felt left out at 9pm we walked off from that place. I met darling at usual bus stop. Gve him his food and he went back to camp. ILYZ!!!

News!! News!! News!! Step up 2 coming up!!! Weeehhhaaa! HEHE! Its a must to WATCH!!!!
Camwhore session with Adek!!! I Love you la adek!!! :)

One after another.

Life is filled with lots of challenges and obstacles. After my problem with bf is solved another two problems appear. A friend of mine is facing a terrible problem with her bf. At first i don't want to get involve but i just can't help it just to tell her what Lynn saw the other day. Obviously she would get angry and sad. That night we talked on the phone and the bf wouldn't want to tell her anything about it.Till today then he told her that he went with a friend but he didn't tell her who the person is. Its hurting her. I know it. I faced the same problem before. I tried my best to help her. I hope that the both of them won't break up and stay strong. Be strong Amanda!!! I fetched bf before heading to grandma's place. Since he got nowhere to go just now. He went over to my place. He ate and chill at my place. Thanks darling for spending your afternoon with my family. Now he knew all my cousins,uncles and aunties from my dad's side. It is sweet to show your bf to them. Dad invited darling out for fishing this wednesday since he had his 1/2 day off. So sweet! I never thought this will be happening. Crazily we downloaded tonnes of Saiful apek's songs. We kept laughing while hearing it!!! HAHA!!!KELAKAR GILER!!!In the end we didn't go to grandma's place. Since everyone was at my place they solved this HUGE problem at my place. I totally forgotten that my dearest bf cannot eat too much chocolate and drinks too many cold drink. I kept pouring the drink and gave him chocolates. In the end he told me this; "Thanks ehk you! I'll be having asthma in a while. " HAHA!! I was like; "Oh no!!! Sori sori!!! I forget!!!" He kept smiling.Now i'm having fever and he's having a slight fever with asthma. I'm waiting for his call to hear if he's doing well or not. Wani,i'm so sorry that i can't replace Jen for the work. Jen,get well soon!!! Love you people!!!

It's still going strong.

At first i thought my relationship is going to end just like this. Thank god it didn't. ALHAMDUNILLAH!!!! First of all we took folios from school in the morning regardless of the rain. LMAO!! Its heavy la sey. DnT folio will be out next week.Relax a while at Wani's place and off we go to meet the guys. It was pouring heavily!!! I was drenched. Went shopping with the guys at Parkway.I didn't shop. Wan bought two tops. After that we had lunch at Banquet. Azri ate Lor Mee and it smells like GINSENG!!!! Yux!! Yux!! Yux!! Because of friendship he forced us to drink the soup. I took up the challenge and the taste SUXS!!! YUX!!! EEEEW!!! BLUEK!!!! All of us had a gulp on that one. Yeeew! I went to my seperate ways. I went to Yishun but sadly there isn't any bus from Parkway to Yishun. I took 76 and alight at Paya lebar and took the train. I thought i was late but bf was even worst! Urgh!!! Hate waitings! After all those waiting,he arrived. Two mats came up to me and asking for my number.Bf was just beside me and so they're been chase away! HAHA! See bie not only you can get girls easily! Me too!!! I admit that the guy was damn cute but i have mine!!! We took cab home.Shared with Khai. Sibok ar khai ni nak share cab! All the way i was giving him this fcuk up look. Now then he knew how stubborn i could be. He hold me tight but i refuse to hold him back. I thought he wanted to let go off me but he didn't. A hug & a kissed me at the forehead was given to me. I just go AAAW!!! & accept it. We reached at his block and now here comes the serious part. He wanted to know everything from A-Z. I told him every single thing but not the person. I was like telling him the person that told me was INA!!! Who the hell is she?! HAHA! Random fcuk!! He came up to me and hug me so tightly. I felt as if i'm totally his. I don't know what got into me. Tears started to roll down to my cheeks. He was surprised and kept saying 'ily'!!! To be by your side on the night of our anniversary is the bestest gift ever darling. As for this month's anniversary, clearing our doubts is the best gift that we could ever give to each other. Nothing is free even Love is priceless. Love hurts so does the saying. What is Love without getting hurt a million times. There's nothing i can give to you except a few things that i could afford;

• Pure love from the heart.
• Trust that could be gained/earned from you.
• My support & care towards you.
• The all time faithfulness towards you.
• The respect i had for you.

Happy 7th month Anniversary Baby Boy!!! I love you as much as you did. I'll always love you like i always do although at times you will irritate me to the core but still you're my beloved one. I LOVE my ONE & ONLY Muhd Zulkifli Bin Shazali!!!